Today, I gave myself a PERSONAL INNER-GROWTH session.
See, for the last several days, I've been 'OVERTHINKING', 'feeling a bit down', 'STRUGGLING with getting up and going/doing'... which is not my 'normal' state of being. So, I offered myself an Emotional Fitness® listening power timeout. What?????
Absolutely!!!! A time out to come back to my self, listen, collect my thoughts and feelings in order to recenter my health & wellness. Doing inner work is an ongoing part of my life, especially as a Holistic Therapy Coach/Course Instructor/Speaker! Let me explain.
In 2010, I went through a very intense mental & emotional burnout/depression. It took me years trying to make sense of it all. How could I have ended up in such a state? Me? There were so many great blessings in my life that I couldn't list them all. This was a fact, yet my mind kept replaying experiences that kept me feeling sad, unwanted, unappreciated, unloved, unaccepted, mistreated, on and on. I was determined to get to the bottom of my 'valley of death' experience - no matter how long it was going to take me. I wanted answers and freedom to be who I wanted to be without playing these undesirable memories over and over; hence, I began my journey into awareness, healing and enlightenment. Today, I have a toolkit filled with beautiful, effective holistic techniques that help reset, reground, rebalance my inner self.
So, back to today... I burned some sage, offered myself space for RESET (time with/for myself), took my journal book and listened deeply to what was going on inside my head (mentally/emotionally) using the approach of EMOTIONAL FITNESS®.
As I began to write about 'bringing the AUTHENTIC ME in all areas of my life', I realized that I wasn't quite clear on what does the 'AUTHENTIC ME' truly mean? So, I proceeded to title a page in my journal as: AUTHENTIC MICHELLE
After taking a moment to reflect, but mostly to 'feel' what that meant, I began to write. And funny enough, it wasn't <I AM...> but rather <I Love...>
I closed my eyes. Visualized my 5-8 year old self. And it began to appear before my closed eyes. I saw myself. I saw my little unadulterated self. The little Michelle who loved life. I saw her, myself, without the effects of societal & domestic programming. As I observed, I began to write:
I love being happy.
I love laughing.
I love loving.
I love singing.
I love dancing.
I love being free.
I love nature.
I love warmth.
I love sunshine.
I love being creative.
I love peace.
I love quiet.
I love fun.
I love teasing.
I love being me.
I love animals.
I love beaches.
...then the adult self took over and I began writing
I love Daniel.
I love my family.
I love my friends.
I love my work.
Once I had this put down in my journal, I realized something magical! The AUTHENTIC ME....LOVES to LOVE. At that very instant, I became aware of what I want to do on a daily basis: 'Each morning, I will meditate upon rising. I will contemplate each area of my life and deliberately usher in the authentic Michelle to love loving.'
Immediately following my session, I composed the song: Little Bit Wiser by Michelle Richards
Emotional Fitness® Holistic Therapy Coach (online) & Course Instructor